Martha's Murmurings

Musings on the human condition from a woman's perspective…

Category: Musings

The reason I started this whole bit…

  • A bond that keeps us connected…

    A bond that keeps us connected…

    I’m having one of those “low-focus” days. Oodles of work to keep me at a full sprint for weeks, and my mind is lost in daydreams and wanderings. Sometimes, I find, I do my best work when I let my brain wander and peruse different thought passageways for awhile. I’m able to come back and…

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  • What is in a name?

    What is in a name?

    I had 3 different names before I was 7 years old. My given name always remained the same, but my last name was on rotation to keep me safe and unrelated to the man who sired me. When I reached the stage of adulthood where people wanted to call me Miss or Ma’am or Mrs,…

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  • Transitions are hard…

    Transitions are hard…

    It’s Tuesday, the first day back to work and school following Easter, and while my cup is overflowing with work and responsibilities, my mind remains focused on the looks on my children’s faces this morning. Both turned downward, inward, eyes at a distance. It was a morning where screens were far more welcomed than hugs;…

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  • Unfurl Me

    Unfurl Me

    Unfurl meas with the seed hidden in darkness; Unfurl meas with the crocus who presses through the frozen earth Unfurl meas with the dandelion pressed down by the weight of mankind’s greed Unfurl my heartas so many petals reaching for the sun Unfurl my heartas with the newly hatched butterfly filling her wings with the…

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  • Who am I? Who are you? The risky business of identity.

    Who am I? Who are you? The risky business of identity.

    Bear with me here. This will likely be a long-long post, meandering here, fussing about over there, perhaps a bit of swanning hither and thither. I don’t have an ‘argument’ – but I do have a point. It will just take me awhile to work through the thought processes to get there. Let’s talk about…

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  • On saints….and holiness…

    On saints….and holiness…

    Before I became a Catholic, I had never pondered ‘saints’. Historical people, canonized for their holiness, faithfulness and virtues. People who lived lives the rest of us are supposed to aspire to. In the process of discernment, small faith studies, even general conversations with those leaders who were helping me find and fan the flames…

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  • On Matter … a reflection in response to Fr. Mike Schmitz’ video on ‘If There’s No God, Then…’

    On Matter … a reflection in response to Fr. Mike Schmitz’ video on ‘If There’s No God, Then…’

    So … true story; As I was logging into work this morning, wanting some background music to keep me focused on a detailed project, I popped up YouTube. While, I follow ‘Ascension Presents‘ and ‘Father Mike Schmitz’ they’re not usually right at the top of my YouTube Feed. Today, this video was. Now… this was…

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  • He is my light in the darkness…

    He is my light in the darkness…

    A hot shower can be so revealing. In a busy life with little breaks, I often take my time in the hot spray to breathe and refocus. It doesn’t always work in a house with one bathroom and two teenage boys and, well, all the things. But there are days when I’m able to step…

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  • … the Grinch’s small heart grew three sizes that day…

    … the Grinch’s small heart grew three sizes that day…

    I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the Grinch, about trauma, about childhood, and about love. I sort of feel like we all got the Grinch a bit wrong and a bit right. I’m not usually one who is keen to apply intense analysis to children’s stories that are meant to teach kindness, rightness, wrongness,…

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  • Triggered

    Triggered

    One of the most difficult challenges in leaving my narcissistic ex is navigating the lies that he spreads about me, and accepting that others believe the stories he tells. As time passes, it’s almost easy to become complacent. To focus on my work, my children, my pets, the daily routine. It’s enjoyable to focus on…

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